This is a thing I used to do regularly about a million years ago on an old blog, and I had an impulse to resume it here. I’ve missed a few Sundays in 2023, but hopefully I’ll get all the rest of them. Here is my Sunday Currently (inspired by Sidda Thornton).
READING | I’m currently working my way through several books: The Picture of Dorian Gray, with my girlfriend; The Moving Finger, by Agatha Christie, which I started last night; Deep Nutrition, by Cate Shanahan, on a recommendation (it’s making me vaguely uncomfortable, to be honest — the aggressive conflation of physical attractiveness with health and “good” genetic expression feels just a couple of steps removed from eugenics — though some of it is interesting); and a re-read of the Bible. I also read a Penny Parker mystery yesterday, The Ghost Beyond the Gate, for fun.
WRITING | The last thing I’ve written aside from posts here and assorted text messages and whatnot was an email to my coworkers asking them to please double-check their entries in our system. I’m pulling reports next week, and I know that, at the very least, Brandine and Becky have not entered things to standard (and I have trained them and given them illustrations, so there’s no excuse), so the reports aren’t going to be accurate, and they’ll be really mad if their sales figures don’t pull correctly. I included helpful screenshots for them and then sent everyone in the department’s individual entries separately so that they can fix them by Wednesday. I’m not holding my breath, but we’ll see.
LISTENING | To Brian Tyler Cohen and Glenn Kirschner discussing the news that Bill Barr and John Durham received a tip about potential financial crimes committed by Donald Trump and never revealed it and may not have adequately investigated it… also the assorted creaking, tapping, and gurgling of the radiators
THINKING | About going to the grocery store and how very much I don’t want to clean my apartment even though I know I need to… I think my grocery list is ready (and I really need to stick to it, because I spent waaaaay too much at Whole Foods last night), at least. I won’t be leaving until early afternoon, when the temperature gets above freezing, so I have some time.
SMELLING | One of the flavors from the coffee sampler my sister got me from Bones Coffee Co. – From Dusk Till Donut… It is jelly-donut-flavored, and the beans smell incredible. The brewed coffee smells more coffee-y, but still amazing, and there’s a very good but not overpowering note of jelly when you drink it. Highly recommended!
WISHING | That my girlfriend was here already
HOPING | That my radiculopathy or whatever it is goes away sooner than four weeks from now… I haven’t taken any Aleve today, but I did do yoga last night and this morning, and I can definitely feel an improvement overall, but I still have a lot of odd and unpleasant sensations throughout my hips and thighs (and less so in my calves and feet). I think it’s serendipitous that my next Miss Marple book is The Moving Finger, because in the beginning of the book to set up Jerry and Joanna in Lymstock, Jerry’s doctor tells him to take it easy in the village and not try to rush his recovery, or he’ll end up doing himself more harm, and that is just the advice I need right now.
WEARING | A light blue men’s pocketed undershirt, a mauve-colored wireless bra, charcoal grey sweatpants that I got at Sam’s Club that are way too big thanks to my weight loss (they were already a little oversized when I bought them), specs, my Apple Watch, and my St. Perpetua medallion
LOVING | My girlfriend’s support and comfort as I’ve been dealing with all my assorted health problems lately, and the way Cat always comes to lay on me when I get into corpse pose at the end of my yoga every morning and night… it’s very soothing
WANTING | To get caught up at work and be able to get these reports pulled
NEEDING | To clean my apartment, and also to buy a travel case for my toothbrush because I can’t find my old one and I will need it for my work trip in two weeks
FEELING | The heavy weight of my own mortality… Dealing with all these nerve issues and pains and inflammation, plus the varicose veins, right now, as I’m actually losing weight, getting my diabetes well under control, and actually behaving in a healthful manner after a really hard pandemic… well, it’s super discouraging. I’m in my late thirties — not at all old — and it feels like my body is falling apart on me way too early. I know I was overweight for too long — and I’m still overweight — and I know I didn’t have the best habits for a while there, but it feels like too rapid and soon a decline. My doctor expects the radiculopathy to clear up on its own in a month, or with physical therapy in a few months, but I guess on top of the appearance of the varicose veins, the diabetes and Restless Legs diagnoses, and my fears about things like thinning hair and crepey skin and all that, it just feels like a lot. I feel stunningly mortal in a way that I haven’t since I was still working on getting my epilepsy under control, and then I dealt with a near-death episode and the concern that I might have a brain tumor because my seizures suddenly accelerated and weren’t responding to medication anymore. Diabetes is terrifying in a way that I haven’t dealt with before, because unlike my epilepsy, I have to think about it all the time still. It may become less pressing, but it will probably never get to the point that, like my epilepsy, I just take my pills and don’t worry about it further.